peek-a-boo.

30 Days: Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

My sister is five and a half years older than me.

But when people see us, they think she's my younger sister or my twin.

She is my inspiration. My hero. My best friend. And always will be.

I love her. I could sit here and write on and on about her, but she knows.

xo, b.

If the stars dont shine tonight, and tomorrow forgets the light, hold onto me.

30 Days: Day 3 — Your parents

For those of you that know me, you know my parental situation.
For those that don't, they're divorced and have been since i was 3 months old.
My mom and i may not always get along, but she is always there.
My biological father and i don't speak, by my choice.
But there is a man that came into my life when i was in middle school, and is the closest thing to a father i'll ever have.
Adam, you're far more amazing than anything i could have ever dreamed of. My inspiration. My strength. My faith. My rock. Nothing i've accomplished goes unnoticed now that you're in my life. Thank you so much.
When you moved away, i never thought i'd feel any sort of consolation again. But you never cease to show me new things.
When you look me in the eyes, i immediately begin to cry. No one looks at me with such hope, like you do.

You saved my life.
I'm proud to call you my daddy. I miss you and i love you.

we accept the love we think we deserve.

30 Days: Day 2 — Your Crush

my crush is lyke totally edward from da twilight saga.
okay FUCK THAT.

I'll admit, i'm not usually the kindof girl that develops crushes. I see attractive boys, and never approach them. But I suppose there is this boy. Sigh.

You've been in my life for awhile now, and i'm not exactly sure what's going on with us. EVER. Sometimes, everything seems perfect when other times i never hear from you. All i know is that i wouldn't change it. Or us. I may be stupid for liking you, but i never said i was smart. All i can do is spend time with you, and see where that takes us. So don't be afraid, my hand is always awaiting yours.

xo, b.

when we become one, how does it feel?

30 Days: Day 1 — Your Best Friend

My best friend is without a doubt, Erik Ryan McAllister & not even death can change that.

Not a day goes by that I don't miss/think about him. He is the one person that always knew what was wrong, without me even saying a word. No one will ever understand our friendship, and I don't expect them to. Words cannot express how it feels to lose your best friend, especially at such a young age. He was 17. He loved life. He had hopes, dreams, and aspirations, which let's face it, is quite uncommon for most teenage boys. He was going to make a difference.

But now, he's making a different kind of difference:

He's helping me live, safe in my heart.

He's keeping me strong, by shining with the stars.

He's holding my hand, when the wind blows.

& most importantly, he's always going to be, my best friend.

rest peacefully, sweet boy.

"angels with silver wings, shouldn't know suffering. if God has a master plan, that only he understands, i hope it's your eyes he's seeing through."